I am a senior in college and have been struggling with self injury since my freshmen year. I was so depressed for a while that my academic career pretty much fell apart. I was behind in what classes I needed to be taking, wasn’t registering on time, getting poor grades, etc. I got help and have been slowly improving over the last semester and summer. Now I finally have all the pieces of my life back together again and have been SI free for 4 and a half months but instead of being happy I am terrified. I am afraid that I am going to fall again and that everything I have worked to fix will be undone. I don’t think that I have the strength to pick up all the pieces and start over again. I also realize that my worrying is probably only making it more likely that I will get stressed out and fall apart again, but I don’t know how to relax. I just want to be able to be happy and carefree again, but instead I am confused and afraid.