It seems like everyone around me has problems right now. I just want to fix it all, but they’re not the kind of problems that have an easy fix. That bothers me. A lot.
I’m miserable too, because I feel like there’s a hole inside of me that can never be filled. No relationship can be close enough and there is no such thing as enough affection to fill this hole. I need those things so badly–just as I have for as long as I can remember, but at the same time I know that they aren’t available in the real world. I’ll always have this empty feeling. Something missing.
I know how you feel. I still feel that it is possible to find though. It is hard for me because I want to fill that hole, but I feel like I can’t as long as I want it so bad. I feel like people will deny me that just because I need it. I don’t know what that says, but it affects a lot and I’m surprised when people can find what they need. Friendship… that is the best thing. Reaching out to others is hard, but some will return the favor and start to fill those holes.