i started SIing a little over a month ago and if i dont SI for maybe more then 3 days i get nightmares about bad things happening to the ones i care about. so now im starting to keep track and SI as least as possible. in my school planner i put a star next to the date that i SIed. recently, i realized a SI alot more and more often. to tell you the truth i dont want to stop. i like SI. i dont like the nightmare. when i get the nightmare it takes over my entire day. and if i dont want the nightmares then i stay awake and cant sleep.
by the way im a freshmen in hs and i have never told anyone about any of this. im scared that no one will understand the things im going through. the main reason i SI is because my mom abuses me phsicaly and metally and im scared to death, i dont have the guts to tell anyone. she only hits me when she gets really mad and this happens offten.
i need help
Whether or not you tell anyone you SI, you must tell a teacher or counselor at school about the abuse at home. I can only imagine that telling would be the scarest thing of all, but your mom needs help and she must stop hurting you. Parents who love and are responsible don’t hit their children. She needs your help, and love, to make her accountable for her wounding you. Systems and people are in place at your school to help you face this. Be brave and tell.
I 100% agree with Donna. There are just somethings you can’t keep to yourself. You need to tell someone about the abuse, even if you leave out the SIing part. And i understand you not wanting to stop. I was like that too, but now i wish i had wanted to. Im 2 months sober from SIing and the scars seem so permantent. I have to hide them all the time, and its getting so hard. I would really like to talk to you one on one if thats cool. Im a junior in high school if that makes any difference. if you wanna talk just let me know and ill give you my email address. But please, tell someone about the abuse…
Sure. Tell someone. Not the police, your mom will freak out. Just the schol counciler. That sounds fine.
I heard that nude colored lipstick can cover up scars, btw. I don’t cover up. No one notices, anyway. -.-
I’m a middle school. Started around 5th grade. i get physical abuse from my dad sometimes. I know what you must feel like.
Good luck.