I’m not really sure what to say. I graduated from safe in 2008 and my life has been great. My daughter came back to live with me and I have a beautiful month old granddaughter that I get to take care of and she is the light of my life! I even went back to school and it is going great. So tell me why I feel lousy and all I want to do is cry! I have been having thoughts of SI and i haven’t had those in over 2 year. My life is good not perfect but good so why do I feel like this? Does anybody have any ideas?
Your life does sound pretty wonderful– but honestly, to the outside eye, my life would seem wonderful too. The lives of plenty of people on this site would seem just fine. I think (and I’m just a teenager, no psychologist) that after using SI for so long, it probably just feels like something that you need in your life to be truly happy. It was sort of a fufiller, and maybe it calmed you down or made you feel better. You’re thinking about SI again because when you used to do it, you felt such release from your pain before. In short, I think you’re just convincing yourself of your unhappiness because you subconsciously want to go back to SI. I don’t know any methods that could really help with that, but I’m here if you need moral support.
hormones? I’m not being “cute.” They’re the strongest chemicals on earth…they provoke new life. Maybe you’re body’s in peri menapause. Just a thought from one who suffered.