So, I’ve lost several people due to death in my short life, and I’m struggling with s.i. right now and have been for almost four years. I’ve never had a death in my family for more than four years and my family is expecting my great grandparents to die any minute now. I am so so so terrified of that happening, because I don’t know how I’ll handle it. What if I relapse really hard? What if I do too much on accident due to depression from the family death? How will I handle all of it? Who will be there to support me and keep me away from s.i.?
I’ve lost people in my life, whether it be through death, just losing the friendship, or fighting with them for, now that I think about it, juvenile and stupid reasons. I’m learning to push past that, and just get along with everyone, because eventually, things and people in our lives have to be lost. It’s just a part of life. Instead of scaring yourself with thoughts and potential stressful factors, enjoy all the time you can with your grandparents, and don’t waste one minute of your life. When my uncle passed away from being sick, I went to see him twice before he left us, and I wasn’t really that sad because I knew I had spent the time with him that he would have wanted me to be there for, and I knew that he knew I loved him, just out of all of that. Sometimes that’s all we can give to people–our time. Time is the greatest gift. Spending our time listening to, having conversations with, or doing things that you love with the people you’re close to.
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i agree, It’s really tough dealing with loss. But all you can really do is push past the pain and give time to what you have with you right now. Life is an amazing thing and while it knocks us down sometimes, there will always be someone or something to help us back on to our feet. talk to a friend about it i’m sure they’ll understand. Just don’t try to handle it on your own. sometimes talking about the things that worry us is the best way to get an understanding of what to do. Stay strong and keep hope, things can get better if you give them time.