i found out last week that I got city funding for my dbt outpatient program. i start on tuesday. i’m really nervous. i feel hopeful. but i’m also worried about about the idea that this may not work. what happens then. but i know that i cannot think like that.

things are horrible with my dad. i have to understand that i have a horrible father and i have to accept that. i’m having trouble doing that since my mother passed away. i keep waiting for him to step up, but i have to accept that that is not going to happen.