Today I decided to clean out my room in an effort to get of old things and things that made me sad. I found a picture. A picture about a year and a half old. It was a picture of me and two friends. At the time the three of us did not know eachother well but are lives seemed so perfect. We had spent the day at the mall together laughing and being perfectly happy. Talking about are carefree lives Now those two friends and I make up probably the three that si in our grade. (atleast that i know of). How did this happen? Could anyone predict this? Who knew?
I am sorry that the picture made you so sad. I am sorry that you and your friends have fallen into patterns of self-harm. I don’t know your story, nor the story of your friends, but your stories matter. It is unfortunate that you felt you had to turn to self-harm, but for whatever reason (and I am sure it is a valid one) you did. and so did your friends. the positive thing to get out of that is a support system. you and your 2 friends can understand one another and be supports for one another to stop self-harm. I have no idea if you have considered that idea, but I hope that you do. I will keep my fingers crossed and say a prayer that you and your friends can get help and make the choice to stop self-harm and get better….so that you can have more happy moments like the picture.
life is never perfect, but you CAN and DESERVE to be happy.
I know how you feel. I was looking back through pictures from high school and three of the girls I knew (and two I still know) all ended up siing by sophmore year. Its amazing how in 8th grade we were all careless and free. Its sad to think about the what ifs and the how comes. Think of the ‘what I can change now’. <3