i dont know anymore, i dont want to feel this way. i cant stop hating myself. i just cant. for the past few days ive been feeling empty like nothing in a way.except i can feel . i dont know how to describe it. i used to solve the nimbness with more SI but i dont want back in thatt cycle.
i feel like im disapointing everyone. i not a good friend, im selfish. my friends are a true blessing in my life, i love them more then anything. i dont know i want to cry so bad i just feel empty and numb but i feel sad so how can i be numb. i dont even know what im feeling anymore
im spending next week with my friend over at the coast but before that another friend said he was getting surgery done on his mouth and wanted me to chill with him and i just totally forgot!!! i cant even think…