I reallyy don’t know what to do at this point, I mean I stopped injuring for like the longest time ever. I was going to a psychologist then my doctor put me on meds && I just pretended that everything was fine when I was really dying inside. I’ve tried talking to people I trust to help me but they just seem at a more loss for words so I don’t know what to do anymore. It’s been about 4 months since my last episode && I have a feeling that tonight it will start back again. It just seems as if everything was so much easier when I was injuring. I felt secure && felt some type of peace amidst this insane world. I’ve stopped taken my medication && my psychologist just had a baby but she wasn’t helping me THAT much anymore. She was just a waste of $50 every two weeks. Secondlyy, my parents are just soooo UGH. They insist on sitting me down and talking to me but they always yell and call me crazy && I just can’t talk to them about this stuff and I guess it’s because I simply don’t trust them to be honest. [sigh] I just don’t know what to do . . . . .