Its been a very hard week for me. I had gone almost two months without SI. But i couldnt control my self and i SI. The reason for this was because of  a girl. Yes a very studpid reason but it was the cause. She used to struggle with SI like myself but she stopped. When i told her i SI she started to help me. While she was helping me though i developed feelings for her. After i told her that i had feelings for her, she responded in a way that made me feel like i wasnt good enough or that i failed, failure and feelings of worthlessness are triggers of mine, so i gave into my urges. Now im trying to move on and get better again.