I feel so awful, both the people that are the closest things I have to friends are depressed. I think it’s because of me, because I always have gone to them when I was depressed and feeling like SI. And now they’re both talking about SI and ending their lives. I’m so scared for them, I don’t want to loose them but it seems I am hurting them with my pain. I don’t know how to help them or convince them not to because I’m a hypocrite for arguing with them about SI. I just want them to be better … and then me get better. I just know I can’t get better if they’re depressed. I guess I’m just really looking for help for them and for me.