so, i moved out of my mentally abusive household about a month ago. This means I’ll have to start a “new” school… again. When I say “new”, it’s not really new. It’s actually my old school district i went to all through elementary school, but that was almost 5 years ago. And, what really stinks is, none of my really good friends are there, they all moved away. I’ll know some people, but no one’s my good friend. And…. I didn’t exactly leave the school with a good reputation in 6th grade… Back then was when I was first depressed. And since then it’s gotten worse and I’ve started injuring. In my old school district, I was shy, quiet, sad, lonely, reserved and didn’t talk much. But when I was with my friends, I was fun to be around. I was funny and nice and caring. I’m just worried I’ll be alone in this new/old school. And plus, people in my old school district thought I was a poser and I was bullied a couple times. I’m worried people are going to make fun of me again… And I really want to reinvent myself. Like, maybe get a piercing, and I want to dye my hair either black or red. But I’m not sure and I don’t know how my grandparents are going to feel about that. And one thing that makes me really nervous is that I’m probably gonna sit alone during lunch my first day there. And that scares me… I’m hoping everything will go okay but I’m never really sure. Does anyone have any advice for me?
if you aren’t sure your grandparents will like it, don’t do it. changing your appearance doesn’t make you a different person. maybe try a new activity. a healthy one 🙂 running helps me. when i’m about to injure, I throw on my shoes and take off out the door. try it.
and keeping to yourself may be the easiest thing in a new school, but taking a chance and making new friends should help make you realize how important it is that you dont injure. when some of my friends found out i SI, they didn’t think i was a freak. they were scared of losing me. 🙁 hurting yourself is going to hurt other people. please try to stop 🙁 there are loads of people you can talk to. heck, you could send me a message if you’re scared to talk to someone you know because you think they’ll judge.
you can handle this new school. it can really be helpful 🙂 make some friends. theyll pull you out of the rest of your emotional slump. i promise 🙂
Just keep your head up. Be who you want to be. Go to school the reinvented person. I don’t remeber half the kids I went to 6th grade with let alone their personailties. Good luck and stay strong <3
you will be fine. The first day of school is always nerve racking but what i have learned is that you have to avoid avoiding. so you have to push your self to meet someone and talk to them even though you may not want to or because you are shy. I am sure there will be other kids there too that feel the same way. maybe you will meet one of them and you can sit together at lunch.