well  the VA finally sent me to treatment in California. I spent two months in a womens residential facility and I am being treated for Borderline Personality Disorder. I guess the self harm and suicidal ideation has a name now. They are putting me through this therapy called DBT  (Dialectical Behavioral Therapy) I guess that is for people with BPD. So far i’ve been in treatment for eight months, and it seems to be doing the trick. I had some slip ups but i’m going on month 5 with no self harm or suicide attempts. I am trying really hard this time, i want to get out of this pattern. I signed up for school this fall and I am going for Medical Assistant. Hopefully i can stay in school this time. I just wanted share with everyone that I am doing better and that there is hope for you too. if anyone wants to email me feel free