Well as i predictede im back to the begining, not excepting myself,and feeling judge and trapped hidding who i truely am for acceptance, by my moms friends and myself. But somehow as much as i feel ashamed of my gayness i want to express it as well i’ve been the only lesbian ive know since,ever i’ve been hiding it for 10 years and been in the open for 2 years and its been a releaf but also a bruden, i guess i need to know, to see for myself that having a gay life won’t be all that bad, i mean life is hard and difficult already and i just added to it.I hope i dont ruin my progress, my hard work of being clean and basically not SIing myself.