I tried to tell my parents about my SI, well, only my dad and stepmother. They didn’t believe me. They claim it’s me trying to get attention. They always find something negative in every thing I do. I can’t even remember the last time my dad said something positive to me. Maybe that’s why I do it, maybe it’s lots of things. I always have a craving for it now, when I first started it wasn’t like this. I could go a few weeks at a time and be good, now I have to. Even if I’m perfectly happy and something good is going on, I’ll force myself into what I call my “moods”. I should stop, but I don’t think I want to.