I’ve been sober for about 6 months, and this is the longest I’ve went without using. Normally I make it to maybe 3 or 4 months and then I just can’t do it anymore. I started SIing at 12 and the following year I tried running away from my problems through the use of narcotics, which of course worsened things. However, I realized this after I knew I was addicted. I am now 4 months away form being 17 and I am scared for my life. I decided to stop using in January as a New Year’s resolution and I haven’t used since. This is the hardest thing I think I’ve ever encountered and not having much support isn’t helping the recovery process. Since I’ve been sober I’ve had a lot of time on my hands because I’ve been staying away from the party scene and I no longer talk to any of my former “friends”. I haven’t picked up any hobbies, and watching television isn’t really for me meaning that I’ve had a lot of time to myself to think which has been leading me closer and closer to SIing or using again. It’s as if I’m being engulfed by my own mind and there’s no escape. I’ve tried reading, writing, listening to music but eventually I end up laying on my bed for hours staring at the ceiling, just thinking. I don’t know anything else I can do to distract myself and I’m afraid that if I go back to my old ways I am not going to make it to see my 17th birthday. If anyone has any advice please comment I need all the help I can get.