I try so hard to stay strong and then I fall apart. The feeling take over and I give in. I can make it a week, two weeks max. Now I;m sitting with my parents dodding over my every move, waiting to heal and for myself to be healthy again.
I just hope I get over this fast.
You do not have to be strong all of the time. People make mistakes and get set back for a variety of reasons. Try not to put huge amounts of pressure on “getting over it fast” and “not messing up”. You are human, you are doing the best you can. That is all anyone can ask for. Your parents are just concerned for you. Even though it may feel like they are monitoring you too closely, they are just doing it out of love. Do not let it push you away or discourage you, as hard as that may be. It helps me to look at what i do in times of success – things I do right that have gotten me through difficult times. Maybe try to figure out what you do that helps you stay strong for one or two weeks and try to do more of that. Looking at the positive things helps me out a lot as well. It can be really difficult to do when you get really down, but it helps so much once you get in the habit of it. It does for me anyways. You will heal, get past this, be a stronger person in the long run because of it, learn from your mistake, and become healthy in time. That seems like a lot to wait for and work towards, but you can do it. Try and stay patient – with yourself, with your parents, within your treatment. A little bit of that can go a long way in helping you reach your goals.