Last night I felt like SI’ing so my friend told me if I did I should call somebody. It was one in the morning so I knew that he wouldn’t be up so I tried to call the don’t cut hotline thing and it was just a recording that reffered me to another number, so I tried that hotline which was suppose to be a 24 hour hotline and it wouldn’t complete my call. I was going to get on the computer to check the blog and the numbers that were posted but I couldn’t. So I SI’d and I guess I’m just kind of looking for some positivity.