i si’d, i had to babysit my brother(the one who sexually abused me)’s two daughters on saturday and therefore i had to see him…i want him to feel how i feel and i hate myself for that… one of the people i have looked up to for forever found out about the abuse and my self injury…i hate knowing he now knows… my world is in turmoil and i don’t even feel bad for hurting myself….
You should want him to feel the way you feel. That’s entirely normal. You have alot of pain inside from past experiences, and the injury is a coping mechanism. You need to tell yourself, that even if you don’t want to stop, it’s your only option. You need to stop injuring for yourself and your health. Talk to the one person who knows, because they can help you. You just have to want to help yourself, and you have to want to ask. We’re all here for you, you have people who love you, and you can be helped. There is hope.
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