I don’t know what to feel or think anymore depresion,happiness,not worth another breath ? I don’t know I don’t know about anything anymore.I don’t know what to feel should I feel happy, should I feel depressed, or should I feel hopefull?  I don’t know what to think should I think they care for me,should I think they don’t care for me,should I think this is where my life ends? I don’t know I don’t care abour my apperance I just took my first shower in like 5 days yesterday as bad as that sounds it’s true.If you want me to look as nice as I can get in 30 minutes get me up hours early that’s how much of an efort it is becomeing for me to even take care of my apperance. Ugh I wish I knew what was going on with me but I don’t I REALLY DON”T!  Is it my hormones,body,life, or mind. What is makeing me this way? Is it my self-injury takeing over!?!?!?!?!?!? UGH! I feel worthless and hopeless. I REALLY WISH I KNEW WHAT WAS GOING ON!!!!! I get anoiyed really easily too now like irabillaty or somethig like that. AAAAAHHHHHHHH I JUST WANT TO SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!! UGH!