I don’t know what to feel or think anymore depresion,happiness,not worth another breath ? I don’t know I don’t know about anything anymore.I don’t know what to feel should I feel happy, should I feel depressed, or should I feel hopefull? I don’t know what to think should I think they care for me,should I think they don’t care for me,should I think this is where my life ends? I don’t know I don’t care abour my apperance I just took my first shower in like 5 days yesterday as bad as that sounds it’s true.If you want me to look as nice as I can get in 30 minutes get me up hours early that’s how much of an efort it is becomeing for me to even take care of my apperance. Ugh I wish I knew what was going on with me but I don’t I REALLY DON”T! Is it my hormones,body,life, or mind. What is makeing me this way? Is it my self-injury takeing over!?!?!?!?!?!? UGH! I feel worthless and hopeless. I REALLY WISH I KNEW WHAT WAS GOING ON!!!!! I get anoiyed really easily too now like irabillaty or somethig like that. AAAAAHHHHHHHH I JUST WANT TO SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!! UGH!
some advice that you don’t have to take: scream and cry out to Jesus, he doesn’t promise to make things better but he will be there for you no matter what, it doesn’t always feel like he is there but he is, i hope you chose to go after him with all of you like i am currently doing, its not easy, sometimes i feel fake but i know i have the right heart then i know i’m not being fake you can push through this on your own but wouldn’t it be nice to have someone on your side 24/7? my advice is turn to Jesus, life will still have plenty of rough times but you will neve be alone
good luck and i’m here for you! 🙂
After should I think this is where my life ends it’s sopost to say or is this where I end my life?
Feelings aren’t the problem here – how we deal with our feelings is what gets us into trouble. Feelings come and go, just as fast as we can blink or change the channel on the TV. Feelings we can’t always control because they come to us, but we can control how we react to our feelings.
Something I was taught to do in the hospital was to “sit with my feelings” and not act everytime I felt something, anything, whether it be good or bad. Just because we feel something, doesn’t mean we have to react.
Feelings are what I tried not to experience when I was self-injuring. It has been a hard cycle to break, but it is absolutely possible. You have to take it one feeling at a time and understand, there are no rules to what and how and when you should be feeling something. Everyone feels things differently, which is what makes us beautifully unique.
please w/e you don’t kill yourself.
Thanks everyone and I know God is here for me 24/7.Also don’t worry I won’t kill myself.