i get so stressed, i feel like i’m bi-polar right now…like i’ll be soo happy then just start thinking about my past ane bam i’m down low…its so hard cause i’m a leader at my church so i have to be what people want rom me… i’m tryin to remain optimistic but is so hard…i want to si and to feel better but if people saw they would this so differently about me…i am such a hypocrite!