Ok so I went for my appointment with the psychiatrist no medication or hospitalization. I don’t have to go back for 2 months. After I waited to see my counselor,but it was just to see what the psychiatrist said cause 10 o’clock showed up.She said that if he (the psychiatrist) thinks that my S.M. is bad enough he will hospilatize me.She said that I would get a case manager and they would decide the stuff.Nicole (my counselor) also gave my mom a site to go to to get info on S.M.,and ways to support me.All of this got me thinking I have to get really bad.Only cause I don’t like it at my house that is the only reason I want my M.S. to get bad enough that I will end up hospitalized.Nicole also said that the case manager may even just put me in one of the places where you have to stay for like 3 to 6 months.Instead of one where you just have to stay for a couple of days.When she was saying all of this I really wanted my M.S. to get bad enough for this to happen.ONLY because I REALLY DON’T LIKE IT at MY HOUSE! My mom was just there with a worried look on her face and said wow when she said the 3 to 6 months.I know I sound crazy to want to get bad enough to get hospitalized,but I just REALLY CAN’T TAKE IT at my house.