I used to be happy, normal, and have faith, but getting let down by everyone I thought I could count on just drained me. I used to have faith in god, but now I even question if there is one, because if so he must hate me. Now, I’m just a nobody, no friends, no family, no nothing. I have nothing to rely on. I can’t even rely on myself, because I have no self control anymore. I hate, when people talk to me about never giving up, and never losing faith, because I’ve tried hard to stay strong, and if I wanted to get preeched at about it I would go to a church, but theres no point, what help is that going to do for me, talking to a invisible somebody that won’t ever answer back? That will just make me look and feel extremely insane.