I used to be happy, normal, and have faith, but getting let down by everyone I thought I could count on just drained me. I used to have faith in god, but now I even question if there is one, because if so he must hate me. Now, I’m just a nobody, no friends, no family, no nothing. I have nothing to rely on. I can’t even rely on myself, because I have no self control anymore. I hate, when people talk to me about never giving up, and never losing faith, because I’ve tried hard to stay strong, and if I wanted to get preeched at about it I would go to a church, but theres no point, what help is that going to do for me, talking to a invisible somebody that won’t ever answer back? That will just make me look and feel extremely insane.
You have to want to live for yourself, as no one can want life for you.
I’m sorry to hear you are feeling so down. No one can ultimately make you feel better but yourself. You have to decide to find the positive things going on each day, for example eating your favorite meal or enjoying being able to pet your dog or being able to sleep in late in the morning. It is up to you to start deciding if you are going to be happy or sad. No one has to power to make your life awesome other than you — you have to start to value your life and start to value yourself.
Other people know you think low of yourself, so they are following your lead and treating you like you treat yourself. Take pride in yourself, your activities, and in your community. Put forth an effort to get better and before you know it, you’ll have a group of people surrounding you and cheering you on. Before this can happen, however, you must decide you are going to win the race of life!