I don’t even know how to begin to explain what’s happened this month. But I need to end SI. But every time I try to stop, I go crazy. It leads to emotional overeating, which leads to insecurity about myself, which leads to more suicidal thoughts. And stopping SI makes me feel terrible, like something inside of me has left. I feel like I have to SI to survive, because otherwise I’ll just lose it, but no one around me understands… I don’t have any real friends… I just am so confused. I don’t know what to do! :s
It sounds like your insides are about to explode because you have all of these thoughts and feelings. Keep writing them down – make them physically real – and you can do this without injuring. Try and demonstrate your thoughts… arts and crafts, letters, and talking with people are examples of how to get your insides out.
Use your words, rather than your actions. There are words inside, you just have to learn what they sound like and how to get them out of you.
Keep on trying!!!