I don’t even know how to begin to explain what’s happened this month. But I need to end SI. But every time I try to stop, I go crazy. It leads to emotional overeating, which leads to insecurity about myself, which leads to more suicidal thoughts. And stopping SI makes me feel terrible, like something inside of me has left. I feel like I have to SI to survive, because otherwise I’ll just lose it, but no one around me understands… I don’t have any real friends… I just am so confused. I don’t know what to do! :s