i have been questioning God a lot lately… i know its wrong its just that i stop and think god where were you? why didn’t you stop him from doing all those horrible things to me and why won’t you comfort me now? i’m so alone.. my assistant youth pastor was talking to me on wednesday and told me he has known about the abuse for a year, i asked how, he said its easy to read when your around teens much… so now not only am i dealing with my past but the one person i looked up to the most at my church knows my deepest, darkest secret, this is so horrible… i haven’t self injured in a couple days but its so tough… i just want to relapse….