It is 12:15 am and I feel so alone and so hopeless. I’ve started to SI again, but I have to be so careful and so cautious, my parents can’t know again, or they’ll ship me off to counseling, or worse seeing how it is now summer. But once again, I am crying out for help but at the same time I’m not. I hate burdening people and they’re busy lives and the people I trust it can get complicated… I just don’t know what to do. I’m so close to having an eating disorder, another thing to add to the list of my life. I’m scared and so exhausted. With finals coming up, I’m sure I’ll have a nervous break down or something.

I just hope I hang on long enough to get out of this mess.