I literally did not sleep last night. I’ve had insomnia for a long time, but usually i can get at least a couple hrs of sleep. I was up all night thinking about my exgirlfriend(not wanting too) and how my life is going and how big of a hole im in. At five a.m. i gave up trying and just stayed up. And the weird thing was when daylight broke i had a feeling of deviance come over me. I havent felt that in a long long time. Today actually feels like a good day. I got dressed, walked outside, and felt alive for the first time sine my breakup. Im not dreading the hrs go by right now. Im still broken hearted and feel lost, but I feel like their is a future now. Its strange, but i feel good about me for once.