I literally did not sleep last night. I’ve had insomnia for a long time, but usually i can get at least a couple hrs of sleep. I was up all night thinking about my exgirlfriend(not wanting too) and how my life is going and how big of a hole im in. At five a.m. i gave up trying and just stayed up. And the weird thing was when daylight broke i had a feeling of deviance come over me. I havent felt that in a long long time. Today actually feels like a good day. I got dressed, walked outside, and felt alive for the first time sine my breakup. Im not dreading the hrs go by right now. Im still broken hearted and feel lost, but I feel like their is a future now. Its strange, but i feel good about me for once.
Sometimes the best thing is a night full of thoughts and then when the morning comes, the thoughts fade away with the darkness. Maybe you needed a rough night in order to put things into perpective?
Glad to hear you are feeling better!
i have a random question, everytime i read your blog i can’t help but think i know this kid, what state do you live in? (if you don’t mind me asking)
Me or sunshine???
ohio
im glad things are going better for you. today is a good day, so cherish it! you will get through things, even if it doesnt seem like it now. I am glad you are feeling alive and hope today. it is amazing what thoughts the mind can lead us to and how sometimes hours of deep thought it all we need to process what has happened. best of luck to you, cling to the hope and beauty life presents to you!