I just self injured after three days of being clean. during those three days my mind was very hazy and i was too depressed to function. It was withdrawl. and now that i fell off the wagon i feel better but i know that that feeling is not real. its the only way to feel noraml for me anymore. i can’t stand it. I just want to go back to the person i was and idk if that is possible for me at this point. Im too screwed up to fix myself.