sometimes the pressure from my family is to much, and their yelling always gets to me. when they dont let me voice my opinion and start to put me down is when it gets the worst. i feel so unwanted by people sometimes. S.I. becomes too much of an escape. it affects others after a while. right now I dont know what to feel or how to feel it.
Make the choice to walk away when the yelling starts. You don’t have to let other people yell at you or yell around you – walk away. Refuse to yell back at them, which is hard to do sometimes, but talk back to them in a quieter voice.
Yelling is one of my major triggers. I can’t stand being around people who are arguing and yelling either at each other or at me.
Feelings are just feelings. They are nothing else. They come and go. Feeling them when they hit allows them to pass. When we self-injure when a feeling hits, we allow the feeling to last even longer than it would have otherwise. We are making a memory of a feeling, rather than letting the feeling come and go through us.
I know what its like to not feel wanted. I cant tell you how many of my phone calls and texts go unanswered. And when i do something as simple as voicing my opinion, its like ive committed treason. All it takes is one person who you can talk to about anything and share feelings with and everthing(almost..) becomes more tolerable. Just find a person who you can relate to and you will be way better off. I know that sounds way simpler than it actually is, but trust me, nothing worth having in life comes easy.