So I am an, ahhh, from way back  I stopped for years but realized that instead of my usual method of SI I’d hurt myself in other ways.  Emotional, physical, moral, anything as long as I hurt.  So yeah, pretty self distructive.  I’ve hit the wall here and I can’t do this anymore.  I’m just done.  I need a support group in my area very badly.  I need to pull myself out of this hole.  I need some help to do it.  I’m not looking for an internet forum or anything like that.  I need accountability and to see others who are going through the same.  Some that are better than me so I have something to strive for and some that are worse off so I can feel better about where I am at right now.  Is there anyone else in my area looking for or found anything like this?