my grandpa probably wont make it until monday and so i went and called my fiance of 2 years for help . usually he helps me but his step mom ran off with his little sister and he’s worried, our phones seem to hate us and we dont get eachothers calls alot . he left me a voicemail screaming at me and when i called him he made me feal like dirt. i told him i wanted to hurt myself and he called me pathetic and hung up, and turned his phone off. my parents said if i ever self harm agai nand they find out they’ll send me away again. i lost all my friends due to my fiance ( they hated him).  pretty much i have nobody .i want to hurt myself so bad. ive tryed ignoring it, but it keeps getting worse. help!