I had a really great conversation with someone who helps me when I have no one else to talk to. It really was an amazing conversation. And she is the mother of my absolute best friend. I’m seeing him tomorrow and for some terrible and odd reason, I feel like resorting to self-injury, to show him that I am in pain. We’ve lost our most popular way to communicate and I’ve depended on him for so long and to know that he won’t be there for me anymore, hurts and I want him to know how much it hurts me. Most ofthe reason why we lost communication is all my fault, but he doesn’t believe it. I hate myself for feeling this way, and he doesn’t even know. How could he know? Exactly. I need help.