So in another pretty uneventful therapy session we discussed my need for a friend and what I want in a friend. My therapist is trying to convince me that there is someone out there who would think that I am worthwhile, but at the same time she can hardly give me the time of day…I mean I’m supposed to have 45 min of her time….but she always takes me in late and makes me leave early…she is always looking at the clock…I don’t know is it just me or does it seem to you like she doesn’t really care about what I am saying?? Isnt it pretty pathetic when not even someone who is being paid to listen to you can hardly stand you.
Now you know why i feel so bad all the time and so very alone…I must continue to SI in order to get someones attention..even though I know it is only negative attention and it never lasts…at least I have someone paying attention to me for a couple of minutes…better than nothing…