I cant stop si its an addiction…i try but it just keeps coming back..everday i wonder why should i keep living? there are things that i do love about life but sometimes i feel like its just pointless to go on..i fail at everything i do, my family is falling apart, my grades are in the dumps and im going to college next year..thats not gonna happen the rate im going. im scared to leave all my friends to leave everything behind and face the reality of being an adult but i do want to get outta here….who knows maybe i wont even make it till the end of next year so what am i worrying for? Should i keep pretending things are ok because i honestly cant do this anymore……