I’m really struggling coming out of my most recent spell of depression. Everything just seems to make me want to cry and SI. I’m resisting stronger because my parents think I stopped four months ago and summer is coming. Finals are coming up and I really need to study I just can’t focus on anything because I’m so screwed up in the head right now. I can’t think clearly about anything … other than stuff, that takes me back to my lowest state of depression. All my “friends” have left me in hopes of a happier summer. I didn’t realize how much of a burden I am to people. People in school avoid me because no one wants to talk to the girl that SI’s. I think it’s awful that it’s gotten around the school … again … I thought talking to friends about it was supposed to help — not make it worse. But my friend freaked and told … alot of people. I could just really use some encouragement right now … if there’s any …
The only thing I can really say is keep your head up, try to distrsct yourself with a hobby that you like try to study and keep your head up and be strong. Good luck!
There will always be encouragement, and sometimes you just have to look for it, like you did with this post. I just wanted to say that I think that every person is created with will and strength. You have both of those things, especially because you’ve made it this far. I know summer’s a hard time. It’s summer where I live, and my mom doesn’t know that I S.I. yet, so I have to go out of my way to cover up. This is a rough time, but keep going, things will fall into place, it’s just harder for certain people. You are not a burden to people, and if those you call your friends are treating you as such, they can’t possibly understand your situation. You’re a beautiful person, and I mean that in all honesty. You’ve been pushing yourself to try to live better, and have allowed yourself to admit your problem. I’m so sorry that it’s gotten around your school again and your “friends” are to blame for that. I know a lot of people, including myself of course that have S.I., and the looks people give can be so disheartening and at the moment, can weaken you. Stay strong, dear. You’re important, your problem is important, and how you feel is important. A way that I keep myself from doing it, is listening to music and making bracelets. If you pour your emotion in something artistic (or healthy things that make you happy), it can really put your mind at ease. Hope this helped.<3