so yeah…haven’t been on here in a while. i have forums that i’m on alot…but this seems alot less personal and more anonymous. that’s what i need right now…just to write and put what’s going on with me down.

so. here goes. to remind everyone, i’m 22 and i SI (well i guess that’s obvious) i consider alot of my actions to be “self injury”. i haven’t injured in weeks/months, but i do have other bad habits that i consider self injury that i started to substitute for the injuring. i have started to have issues with food. i know it isn’t healthy…but idk what else to do. the stress of the family fights and the dysfunctionalness of it all drives me insane and just makes me want to run away and get away any way i can whether its sleep or reading or just randomly driving around just so i can get away…i lied to my mom and told her i was going shopping to get some food, when all i wanted to do was go buy items to self injure with. i’m so lost and stuck. i don’t know what else to do.