so i have never been on a site like this but i found it and figured maybe it could help.  i have been dealing with s.i. for three years now and havent done anything since april 22, 2009 but for some reason i am having a hard time recently.  for about 6 months there i wasnt tempted or anything and it was going great, but now i constantly think about it want to self-harm.  i just dont see the reason to not self-harm.  im just wondering if anyone has any advice as to why it is worth it to  not self-harm, or how to not self-harm.  thanks