My family iz falling apart . My mom iz alwayz stressed and yelling . My dad iz a “recovering” adict , just recently out ov rehab . My sis iz scared n only 3 n waaaaaaay 2 yung 2 hav 2 wory bout this stuf . my bro iz in rehab . my mom keepz on making me take drug testz 2 . i recently relapsd aftr bein clean 4 bout 4 moths . i alwayz think bout si n othr bad stuf . i m thinkin bout it gain . i m only 11 n strtd thiz wen i waz 9 . my parntz just got devorcd , my bff just died not 2 long ago n it feelz like i m al alone . i m 100 lbs ovr weight n fat n alwayz get made fun ov 4 bein the fat emo , n only hav 1 or mayb 2 frendz . no1 undrstndz wat i goin thru . i also m a very bad kid . i alwayz get in trubl , n hav a police recrd . i hate myself , my life , n almost anythun livin . i need real help . i hav a psycyatrist , a therapist , pscologyist , n a counsilor , but it aint wrkin out tht wel . i m getin horibl grdz n my life iz falin part . my bf just broke up wit me . i alwayz cry evry day . HELP ME !!!!!!!!
I’m so sorry for everything that you’re going through. You don’t deserve any of that, so don’t hate yourself. People hurt you, but it is not because you are a bad person. It makes me so mad that people are making fun of you, because no one should ever get treated that way.
Try to work hard with your therapist, psychologist, etc., because they want to help you and you are lucky to have them.
Good luck, you can do it.
Staystrong
i know what your going through. its hard. ive been dealing with SI for two years (im 15 now) but ive been clean for a little over three months. sometimes life can be so difficult and people put you down and make you feel so much worse but theres always someone out there that loves you and still cares. if you ever want to talk email me: monicacasperino@aol.com