I’m 16 yrs old and this is the first time I’ve ever really considered even visiting one of these sites. I guess its because I can feel myself slipping into an uncontrollable state of being. I have had a problem with S.I. for almost two years. I’ve always been more of an independent type of person. I’d rather fail on my own than ask for help. But now I can feel my self slipping and I’m scaring myself. I’m starting to wonder if I can really do this on my own anymore. I’m scared. Scared that if I don’t get help I know where I might end up. But if I get help…I’ve never done that before I have no idea what that entails and I’m too scared to find out. I’m on my own. I feel so alone and I guess I need to know that I’m not. And that I’m not the worthless type of person my parents have led me to believe. I’ve been through hell and back and have had the “opportunity of seeing my family ripped apart because of me and had to fake a smile and be there for everyone around me. I’ve always been the one to take care of everyone else. But now as I begin to slip off of what feels to be a cliff and fall no one is there to catch me. To stop me from falling. To help me. After I’ve helped and saved everyone. I’m on my own and I’m scared. I feel weird pouring my heart out to a computer screen but still…it’s all I have right now.