The urges are pounding right now.

Memories are mixing with thoughts and emotions and everything that that girl who was supposed to be my best friend did to me and I can’t breathe and I can’t see and I’m remembering how my other ex-best friend taught me how to injure that’s wrong that’s not what she was supposed to do she was supposed to help me not make it worse I’m so confused and I can’t trust anybody and I need someone to hold me and tell me that everything will be okay because my hope is

slipping away.

and now the tears are coming and the pain is there and the wants and urges are so persistent and I could go get a tool right now but I came on here… please help me I’ve almost made it to six months and I really can’t give up now I just want to feel happy and whole and okay again…