I can’t say I’m not surprise about what I’ve decided to do, but here it goes. I’m giving up on everything that I know including therapy and friends. I will never get any better or worse than I am now it’s just no use. I will never be anything else, but a loser to all who know me and that is final. i wrote a letter to my shrink explaining everything and also saying goodbye. So here I am to all of you guys saying I’m sorry, but I have to go this has just been a waste of time to all involved and I don’t want to take up anyone else’s more time. You see the self abuse hasn’t ended it’s just gotten more more rabid. i still feel like all this means I care and without it I will be a nobody like I am now so it doesn’t matter any way.