Well, I haven’t written anything on here for a while so I figured I would. I haven’t SI’ed for about 4 months now but I think about it ALL the time and I can’t get away from it. I guess it’s stupid but I keep thinking about it because I’m having relationship issues and my boyfriend doesn’t even let me kiss him anymore. I guess it would be easier to just leave but I love him and I don’t know if it’s gonna be that easy to let him go. Maybe it because I’m not giving him what every guy whats… I’m sorry if I wanna be more than just a “toy” to some guy. The thing that’s really hurtful is that he told my friend that she’s more fun than me, that he doesn’t love me as much as he use to, that I bore him, and he doesn’t even know if he loves me anymore. I can’t even talk to him about what he said because my friend said she wouldn’t tell anyone therefore I’m not suppose to know any of this. On Monday I might just ask him what all he said because I’m tired of secrets and I deserve to know, right… I mean, I’m his girlfriend of all things. Well, I just don’t know anymore. If any of you wanna talk or just need to vent just email me at emo_chick44608@yahoo.com .