All the mean things my dad has ever said to me is floating around in my head. All the bad words, all the yelling, all the blame for things I had nothing to do with that he needed to put on someone else. It hurts worse every day. Physically, even. I havent SIed in a little while, and I get… buildup and from that I get headaches and pressure in my head. It hurts abd I’m not lovin it.