I was doing pretty good with my recovery process, I was still SIing occassionally but I was REALLY working on stopping and getting better and changing and becoming more of the person I want to be. The past week or so I’ve given in a few times and I just feel like maybe it’s not possible right now. I keep falling and keep getting back up and keep falling. Something doesn’t feel right, i dont know. I just feel a bit hopeless and helpless.