I went a entire month without hurting myself. But then the familiar sensation came back and in the moment it felt so right but now I’m always having to lie to my family and friends, and teachers are asking questions. I just want to wear what I want and be free. I hate knowing that that hurting myself is in the future, and I know it doesn’t have to be but I have no control over this anymore. I feel like I’m going to be sick when I go to long without using my tool. I am a slave to myself.