Things are getting worse. Life is getting harder. It’s a drag just to get up from bed. I wake up from nightmares and restless sleeping. Then I get to hear about how awful I am and how much of a disgrace I am. Thanks mom and dad (step-dad). I really appreciate it! And thenI get to go to school, put on a fake smile, act like I’m okay and people believe it. Sometimes I think people can tell its all fake but just dont say anything. Maybe they don’t just care.

I’m suffacating in the fronts people put up, the lies we have to tell eachother and the air we breath. It’s intoxicating. I’m hopeless and I just can’t breath.