I woke up this morning hating myself – for no real particular reason. I woke up and all that was going through my head were really self deprecating thoughts. I hate the way I get awkward around people sometimes, I hate that I am a non-outgoing person, I hate the way I look, etc…
It was a different feeling for me to have so much hate for myself. While I was getting dressed I had this one brief thought about ending it all and asking myself what is the point of “me”.
I have not had thoughts like this in a long time, and after I started on meds months ago, my thoughts were getting a lot better. It was kind of scary to be thinking like this again.
Not sure what to do. I would really like to not hate myself. It certainly does not make trying to get through my days any better.