Self-injured this morning. Its been SO much worse lately. I’ve been having panic attacks practically every time I have to leave the house (at least, teh counselor thinks that’s what they are). I had a really bad one at work about a year ago, when I was working at a buffet and it was really crowded. Since then, on bad days, just the thought of leaving my house and going somewhere crowded will trigger me. And most days are bad days lately. I don’t work anymore and I’ve been missing more classes in school than I’ve been attending.
I only seem to SI during these attacks though, so if I can get rid of them maybe I’ll start doing better again. I’m seeing a doctor later this week for a diagnosis and probably to start medication for it. Currently not taking any kind of meds at all. The thought of it really frightens me. I’m afraid it won’t help and I’ll just end up burrowing deeper into this little hole I’ve dug for myself. Or that it will just make me feel worse. I’m really starting to feel hopeless about this whole panic thing & I haven’t even really gotten help with it yet. I know something needs to change, but change just seems impossible. I’ve been trying to change this problem for years. I’m not getting anywhere.
I began injuring when I was 13 because of panic attacks. I didn’t understand what was happening to me and thought hurting myself would make my breathing calm down, get rid of the sick feeling, and help me think.
What helps is when youre having an attack is to think okay, this is just an attack, it doesnt mean i have to harm.
it helps me to think of it that way.
Thanks 🙂
umm nice suggestion but not very helpful what she should do is take very deep breaths try to identify the CAUSE of the panic attacks and why they cause a desire for SI no offense though to youre idea i thought it was very sweet but its never JUST an attack deeper cognative thinking is involved studies tests
self reconstruction identify the obstacle. take nothing lightly really attemt to identify and solve the problem> hope this helped (if this blew you away coolio im only 14) :))