everyone is walking out of my life.
everyone is afraid of me.
everyone says that i am intimidating.
everyone blames me.
friends stop talking to me.
friends dont back me up.
friends are scared to know what i think.
friends dont keep promises.
they do NOT know me.
they JUDGE.
they have expectations.
i am hiding a secret. but, people are already know and they dont care.
i feel weak. what if i started SI because i wanted attention and that was the only way? should i have a better reason for all of this?
i am scared i dont want to quit. half of me says yes and the other says no. i have to be strong for everyone else, but i am never strong for me. i help other people, but not my self.
i am weak.
i want to be strong.
i know it probably doesn’t mean much, especially coming from a stranger, but you’re not alone. i, too, am weak, and i don’t want to stop SI; the other half of me knows i have to, if not for my sake, then for my family and friends,’ i feel horrible for scaring them all the time…
You’re not weak
Because guess what… you’re dealing with this everyday and you’re still here, you’re still fighting, you’re still breathing. Maybe you’ve hit that low before where you wish to not breathe, I don’t know, maybe you feel that way now, but what’s important is that you’re still breathing. You’re strong for fighting this battle. Maybe sometimes the demons win. But guess what? You come back for more. You come back to fight. That’s strong.
I think it’s all something we need to remember from time to time.
All of us here are much stronger than we think.
Because here we are.. we’re fighting this battle. And guess what? Sometimes we win. Sometimes we put down the sharp. Sometimes we use a coping skill to get our mind off of it. Sometimes we beat the demons.
Weak?
No!
You are strong
Don’t forget to smile love.
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me too im always putting on a brave face for others but do nothing for myself if they abandon you and blame you they are no friends of yours tell them that then look for help PROFESIONAL help open up like you just have today it will get better but only if you fight for it waiting for things to get better wont help you believe me youve got to try keep striving for light and comfort in this lonely dank darkness of a life its worth it in the end i promise but in reality its up to you wether you make it or not only you can make the journey but not alone…… 🙂