It’s like for a few days I obsess over harming myself

Then for a few days I obsess over my weight

I keep watching thinspiration videos on youtube…

Funny thing is.. I’m quite thin..

I’ve gained some weight though and at first it was okay. at first i thought i was the only one to notice. then my mom mentioned something “hope you dont gain anymore weight between now and prom or that dress wont fit” i can’t get it out of my head.. make the gained weight go away.. please..

i feel lost right now

spinning

my thoughts spinning out of control